I am so sorry to hear about your loss. I know how difficult this must be for you right now. Just remember that your grandmother loved you very much and is looking over you. Don't worry about not being able to say goodbye. Your grandmother will always be with you in your heart. Thing of every kind work she has ever spoken to you. Think of conversations only you and her shared. Know that she shared those moments with you to carry you over in times like this. I will be praying for you and your family.
Wow! That's awful! Just relax and think of all the good tomes you had together. It's okay to cry or scream just so your feelings don't get bottled up and you get really stressed! Thinking and praying for you!! :)
My grandmother passed away 4 years ago on December 9th, 2006. She practically raised me since the day i was born. My mom was a single parent so my grandmother basically took the father-figure role. I know exactly how you're feeling right now. Up until now, a day doesn't pass where I don't think of her. Both our grandmothers are in a better place now, but what you need to remember is that they will always be present in our hearts. She will always be there for you.
Perhaps you can express your feelings by writing a note dedicated to her. Keep it in a safe place and you'll always be able to recall what she meant to you and perhaps your kids will appreciate knowing about your grandma in the future. This might just help you reflect on your feelings. Sorry for your loss.
You'll certainly greatly grieve for such a great life within you that now feels so hopelessly void. But in and on time, you'll understand there are no endings, just the start of new beginnings. The Lord is a tender & gentle Shepard. He knows you better than you know yourself. Don't be afraid of what you don't know Through faith he'll teach you all things.
When my grandma. Passed. My mom gave me a necklace of hers. And told me to keep it inside my top I asked why her answer was when I felt the need to talk to grandma. Or just recall her for any reason to take it out. Hold it But cry for abit. Then return it inside becoz grandma knew I loved her and I knew she loved me. N she would like me to stop living a happy life. Sorry for your lost but she knew. She's in heaven looking over you.