I decided, im going to abandon my Social life for a while... almost like a Hiatus..because i feel like..
my life is getting to the point where, im depressed and suicidal ive seen therapists and took meds.but that doesn't work. so i decided to stop being a p*ssy and man up and fix everything in my life.and i want no distractions.i play the piano.which i love! it really calms me down. and takes me into a different place.and ive been writing songs. and im working on this big one which i will upload to YouTube in the future, plus im working on a animation (love art also) and im going to work on that.but the BIG one which i really need to work on more then the others is my weight.my depression have kind got heavy through out the years.so im work out a lot! i already lost 30lbs.. but unfortunately ive been slacking off after that..which probably caused me to gain a few lbs back ;( so im trying to get back up. so i figure.workout,school,Music,animation. it sound like much to handle but seemingly that music & art calms me down it wouldn't be a problem.but i just would like a few second opinions on this.btw just adding im 265lbs (most likely more because of my slacking) trying to reach to 165 or lower by december of this year. and im confident i'll make it.i go to the gym 4-5 times a week)